“I think it’s boring that each time fat people (especially those who have been vocal on accepting their fat) have to do these big ass disclaimers when talking about exercise).” said Nomali, a fellow blogger. Let the church say amen.Discovering the world of body acceptance had been a blessing and a curse. On the one hand, I formed a relationship with it, albeit a rocky one complete with ups and downs. On the other hand, the great contradiction of accepting, possibly loving my fat body and working out, among other reasons always triggers self sabotage, prompting me to put away my training gear anytime my body starts looking smaller and the sudden worthiness of respect creeps its ugly self into my perfect consistent world of insults, side eyes and bullying. So you see my dilemma here? Mind fuckery.